She Was All I Had

I felt liked God have blessed me. I wake up and I see you. I go back to sleep you are right here. In the middle of the night I feel you. I like it when I touch you. when am cold I hug you and feel the blood running through your vein. I feel safe. I have it all, this is all I want. that was all I wanted. but when I woke up you are gone. always staring in the sky, looking up. when I grab our sheet you are out, always up looking at the sky. I wanted to enjoy what we had but he was already knocking. I pushed him back, I pushed him out, I push him far. when he comes I always say not today. Bah Vanessa was half way. he kept coming. we kept fighting we stare in the sky all night and did nothing else until she finally closed her eyes in my arm. But she was all I had. now am only allowed to stare at her in a frame, and when it gets cold I hold my sheet. she was gone and there was no one, no one except from memories sleeping beside me and tears rolling down my check.