Shallow Abyss

I always try to shake this feeling Yet it kept on creeping inside of me That of being lonely not knowing why Emptiness no one and nothing can fill I don’t want it but it’s what I bear Foolish wistfulness or sheer ennui At an age when none is challenging At a time when everything is routine Atypical of a Gemini as I am I can’t stand static intransience I want to float in the air and fly To be in the open ocean and swim But for what, I do not exactly know For when the tears fall I always ask why Why do I crave for life when I am alive? Why do I feel empty when I am full of me? Suddenly adrift in a shallow abyss For thoughts that were unfulfilled Things I should have done but haven’t Times that should have been well spent But I had overcome all that, or have I? Sometimes the brain mars how we feel Vague emotions bursting pointless tears For what I cannot twig…I will just weep!