Shadows
A dark shadow is weighing me down
I want so badly to be able to smile
But I can only frown.
A sense of despair has weakened my soul and my heart
I push everyone away
Before any chance of happiness can start
Emotions run through me but escape and explode
I can’t excuse them
And apologies grow old
Alive yet,dead and unable to break free
This dark shadow is holding me down
But,nobody can see
I run and run but my feet don’t touch the ground
Unable to move forward
And I am to blame that nobody is around
My body aches
My heart is numb
Blaming others for the mistakes I’ve done
Words no longer mean a thing when actions destroy them all
Hurting those I love
No longer answering my call
The black shadow holds me down and takes my life away from me
I try to look past it
But, truth is blinded by illusion in its way for me to see
I try to escape and try to hide
Efforts go wasted
Despite how many attempts I tried
Apologies mean nothing when they aren’t there anymore to hear
Tears fall down
But, are dried up by fear
Frozen and fragile and about to break
Unable to take back the regrets
Or fix another mistake
The black shadow takes hold of me and controls the thoughts inside my head
Irrational and explosive outbursts without reason
Unsure of why I spoke the cruel things I said
My soul is lost and can’t find its way
I wear bruises and scars inside of me
That will never go away
No medicine can heal them and no herb can ease the pain
The black shadow has me hostage
Driving me insane
If I have ever hurt you, please listen to these words and know that they are real
If I pushed you away or drifted off
Please forgive me for the pain I made u feel
If I knew how to stop it I would find a way
But until the dark shadow releases me from its grasp
There are no words to describe the regrets I live with each day
Copyright © Danielle Brunelle | Year Posted 2018
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