Serenity

i see many times where i should have died during my previous style of living someone something was watching over me i rather not assume the matter of will is the more difficult part of me i have experienced enough emotioinal pain through failed attempts at love anxiously awaiting for the calm after the storm i tend to hinder myself to be released from self confinement but convince myself to go forward i am no longer a slave to misery or regret yet in so many ways enslavement still threatens myself my desires and my dreams without dreams i'm stuck i must go deep inside the core of my being to free myself until i do i will always be running and never truly at ease insanity dominates my life at times and the essence of my disease i tend to get chained to negativity with no cutting loose power can remove these character defects from me when i don't practice deception i like the idea of admitting defeat it sets me free