Second Best

youve been in my life for 18 long years and all ive ever wanted was to be with you you didnt even notice that growing up i was trying to get close to you you were my friend for so long and everytime you got your heart broken i would cry for you you were strong and didnt show it but i know you hurt over it and now that im finally with you after waiting so long im afraid... you said you would never hurt me and i believed you but now that youre spending more time with her im starting to wonder. i wonder whats really going on between you two if its just friendship after the long relationship or if there is more that im not seeing i get so scared when she is around because you dont see the way you look at her the way you smile when she talks the way you are so comfortable with her around the way your eyes light up when she walks in the way you say her name in your sleep it seems so obvious to me that you still love her how could you not? you two share an unbreakable bond and no matter how hard you fight it no matter how many times you tell me its nothing i know thats a lie there is something there something im missing something...something dont think that im trying to replace her. that is the last thing i would want to do i really do love you but ill never be her youll never look at me like that youll never love me like that you say you love me... is it true? or will i just be second to you...