Scream

I stepped aside to see the girl I've become And realized how much I've been numbed I've stopped caring about this life That continually cuts me with a rusty, dull knife The tears fall less often down my face I've lost my innocence and my grace Now all I do is hold in pain I've lost all hope of any possible gain I try to hold back from revealing my sorrow Tired of hearing that you'll help me tomorrow I'm jaded. I know I've been pessimistic But what reason do I have to be optimistic? I sit here, breathing heavily I can't manage to keep myself standing steadily There's no more desire for positive change The idea of happiness is now foreign and strange They say that happiness comes from within I guess I'm just bitter & angry, is that such a sin? You'll see me quietly composed The kicking and screaming inside wont be exposed I want to hide in my corner, cut off from the world Fulfilling my destiny to be a lonely girl I'm fading in the darkness, I'm not even trying In an empty grave, I lie, slowly dying The noise dies down and in the silence, I'm free, Screaming out frustration in my poetry