Scene In Daze

Can’t keep my mind steady Paranoid about where I’m headed Asking me why I changed I tried not to But at the time It seemed inevitable Leaving spectators to judge my heart Tell me was it credible Rumors become curtesy of lynching’s Secular thoughts trapped in traditional dimensions Trying to make it to a new year Upon completion of duel semesters But I can’t with draw from beefing With these crooked city officials Going through what I’m going through I look to the future And wonder how I’ll make it financially My conscience is ignoring the thought Leaving the reality of the subject To answer me I’m paying my taxes Yet still in courtrooms I’m awaiting legal faxes Brutalized and feeling less than human Thinking to myself, “I’ll stack my riches” And in twenty years you’ll see a new man Sleeping with a pistol Awaking by every wind that whistles it's become less considerable to maintain a comfort at ease Contemplating going to war against individuals I know I can’t beat But my refusal to allow them To bring me to my knees Has brought warmth to my shoulders and sleeves Caught up in traffic can I escape detainment It appears that I missed a court arraignment Maybe it’s my suffering that you call entertainment Got a phone call from a love In Wisconsin, running in the snow Said she was wondering how I was Wishing me a happy new years And wondering how things were going In the open Monroe She giggled and told me She was reminiscing of us cuddled up Snacking on cheese curdles She laughed and said I miss you I laughed and said I see you still smile like an untouched pearl