Scared

Looking at myself in the mirror tear stained face tears still flowing I can't stop My heart and head are screaming but I sit in silence I'm still running from the pain and hurt Pretending everythings alright to all who'll listen Prtending to myself But its all caught up with me now the darkness is descending I can't find my way.. I've left it too late and I have nothing more to say Sitting boxes half packed to run once more I have no where left to go The more I want to start again the darkness stops my flow The light is fading and I'm all alone my memories good and bad half packed in obscure boxes Is that my life... They ground me down and now I can't get up drowning in my tears I can't get through it this time I can't fight anymore.. my head and heart are broken I can't stop the tears now I stop runninng I can't carry on I dont know how