Say No

shut it off please go away i cannot write another day the words control me and my thoughts damage me one by onr tearing at my dignity leaving me ashamed at the things i have done just to get high just to get by then i'd lie to cover it up cover the truth the truth of failure of bad behavior who will be my savior so pretrified to come clean so i issolate myself and drift off and enjoy it slap back to reality is this for real will i ever heal sitting here lying to myself thinking all i want is to get high this feeling overcomes me of not knowing what to do i'm quiet so quiet my eyes are loud they are screaming my mind is pleading please no more if only that one blast would last then what would i chase if only it did not consume me if only i never tried it and kept denying it i would chase it i wish i could just erase it