Sanctuary

Sanctuary for the soul, and the mind a calm that comes naturally serenity, re-defined that is the goal, for which i strive amid the chaos, and the turbulent a life with the purpose, to someday arrive at the conclusion that i really meant there is so much confusion so many ways to go wrong it seems happiness might be illusion yet the vision i hold is so strong i have found a heart, that i can hold i love my son, that much is clear this hand is dealt, i can not fold i want to see him grow, to be near a sort of immortality, i have found through no monumental effort of mine i have come in from the clouds, to the ground landing somewhere near the end of the line the lonely part of me that needs is very much happier for his being no matter how much, this heart bleeds with his birth, i can stop fleeing i will carry on, throughout it all not always knowing what i should do but looking at last through my wall at an accomplishment, alive and true i will let people in, through my defences reach out to those who are ready join others, across their broken fences rising above my past to see finally, a glimmer of hope, and sanctuary never alone again meaning for us, and for me if not me, then my son could win so the pressure is off at last free to expand others may laugh, or scoff they do not understand pride is not mine anymore nothing to prove to anyone today is what i am living for each one by one, til i am done