Salvation Seeker

Colors faded in to the black I have gone to far to take it back but every when I question why all I get is an anger high No rush or drug can get my down my fate it sealed into the coulds with great sorrow I stand my ground knowing that only GOD can save me now but what is GOD? who is he or she is he or she alive does he or she strive or do they look in from the side lines until we beg for mercy instead of begging for what we derserve It was just another bump in the road just another sharp curve So then GOD what would you call my blade? I call it a way out one painful second that tells me I am alive and I still beg for what my heart wants I wish to die Truth says you know what the heart may seek but I am overly broken and passed the peek Still you make me live and strive God I beg you Let this child die for the innocents was stolen and salvation was killed where does a hurt child like me lie? Within Hell or beside heaven I know one thing, I'll never be forgiven