Salvation

Kneeling in the median, crying, crying, what have I done? Oh the pain, the pain wishing the past was undone. I have no hope for my wretched life, now that I am alone. The horror of a dying man reverberates in my bones.. That look sinks into my soul with his plea of, WHY! His pleas of why, I cannot live, why must I die? As his eyes of his soul fade away into lifelessness. I feel the authority gently pull my arms and cuff both my wrists. I wanted no representation at my hearing the following day. The Judge took pity on me for I was trying to keep my crying at bay. He sentenced me to five years for DUI and 10 for vehicle manslaughter. Now I sit in solitude, withering away and not living, why bother. I usually keep my cell door closed, I want no company But in my melancholy of self-pity, I left it open this day. A joyful youth of red hair came bounding in with a beautiful smile. His noble intentions startled me for a while. He offered me his ration of delicious smelling bread. I was distraught over this death with deep sorrow and dread. I gently refused his kind offer and told him I want no life. He warmly smiled at me which put a pause in my strife. You have me transfixed and wanting to know more. “I see the pain in your eyes, do you want release?” he implore. I told him that it hurts so much that I do not want to Live. He said, “Have you considered an alternative that I am willing to give?” What is it? I stated, what do you have for I know I am condemned. Let me tell you about our brother that he wants you to mend. I am an only child and I have no brother, you speak of him, who’s he? He is Jesus, our brother who extends a welcoming hand and want you to see. See what? I asked as my heart started to warm as if he’s there. Suddenly our brother appeared in radiant light and sat in a chair. I fell to my knees and bowed to him crying, why me brother? I feel your pain of a contrite heart for you are my child like no other. Please listen to me for I and one who has died forgive you for what you have done. Now, child, please forgive yourself, when you do your life will shine like the sun. Still kneeling at my brother's feet and I forgave myself over and over again. Thanks to my redheaded friend and brother, my new life began.