Rewind

Can I rewind? To a time Before I foolishly called you mine. Just so I can recognize the line, So I can realize this thing won’t exist, And you will always resist. So I can realize there is no us. And for you, this was just a thing of lust. So can I please rewind? To a time Where I didn’t want to die, To a time where I didn’t constantly have to hide. To a time before I knew you, Or even to the time where I thought the lies you told were true. I just want to rewind! To before I was in rapture Of all of you, To a time where I was in awe Of everything I believed to be true, To a time when I didn’t know your flaws To a time where I thought, I could make you fall. To a time where I didn’t know Love isn’t a thing you can capture. I need to rewind. So I don’t have the vision Of you walking out the door, Without even considering I might’ve wanted more, Stuck in my head, playing on repeat. Just to where the self-hate hadn’t risen. Not yet at least. But I can’t rewind. Stuck knowing your game, The feel of your name Stuck on my skin, With me wearing it every day, I didn’t want to play But now I have to call you My biggest sin. I wish I could rewind. Not because of you, But because I never deserved to go through, All of this. Yeah I wanna take back that risk, But because I miss who I was before. When you left, you YOU shut that door.