Repetitions

Pushups until I can't feel anymore I lose count and let the tears hit the floor Pain and crying, the only two ways I feel alive I've learned to strive and not just get by I'm thankful that I've learned to cope Instead of hiding, dying on the inside Slitting your wrists just leaves scars Reminding you of how hurt you are And late nights will only kill you slowly Drink after drink at the bar These days I don't run from my problems These days I don't try to forget I let my body ache I run and run until I see daybreak Lace up my shoes And hit the pavement Knowing I don't have to run from my guilt Because I have God's forgiveness I push my body til it gives At least it's a healthy way to live It's been years since I quit smoking, drinking, doing drugs And yeah I sometimes still feel numb So I get down on my knees and pray Then do pushups until the pain fades Now I do repetitions.. Instead of repeating my mistakes