remembering the time when i was LOST

Forever wondering when I won’t be left behind and upset Pondering if you’ll ever save me from burying me alive Wandering in the woods of my spiralling mindset of regret Squandering my time time after time and I will surely survive Strange how change makes us feel deranged Remembering the time when I was lost and wasting away at last Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged The past is in the past and my mind is racing extremely fast I don’t deserve to be deserted, though you are the one I adore I don’t deserve to be mistreated and neglected by you I won’t accept your heartless maltreatment anymore Although you are feeling somewhat empty and blue Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred and I’m so sore Constantly getting raped by woeful, harsh rue… Learning to cope with these emotions to the core…I let go and soar What did I do to deserve this cruel love flu? For your sake alone, I will break on my own Remember the time I was lost? You couldn’t find me at any cost Strange how change makes us feel deranged Remembering the time when I was bewildered and oh so uptight Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged Recalling a better time spent with you all day and night with my might I don’t deserve to be deserted I don’t deserve to be lost and in anguish I won’t accept your maltreatment anymore I don’t deserve to be jaded and languish Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred I don’t deserve to be lost, forgotten and blind Learning to cope with these emotions to the core I don’t deserve the unjoyous frame of mind But, you’ll find me eventually… You’ll see that I will be set free I’m sorry I was lost irrationally Maybe, someday, I’ll be happy Strange how change makes us feel deranged Remembering the time when I was lost and wasting away at last Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged The past is in the past and my mind is racing extremely fast I don’t deserve to be deserted, though you are the one I adore I don’t deserve to be mistreated and neglected by you I won’t accept your heartless maltreatment anymore Although you are feeling somewhat empty and blue Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred and I’m so sore Constantly getting raped by woeful, harsh rue… Learning to cope with these emotions to the core…I let go and soar What did I do to deserve this cruel love flu? I don’t deserve the unjoyous frame of mind… If you’d be so kind, let’s unwind and leave the past behind Under a wicked, evil spell once more Intoxicated by my infatuation to the core My darling love, hope you’re so well, Living in this egotistical world of hell Strange how change makes us feel deranged Remembering the time when I was lost and wasting away at last Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged The past is in the past and my mind is racing extremely fast I don’t deserve to be deserted, though you are the one I adore I don’t deserve to be mistreated and neglected by you I won’t accept your heartless maltreatment anymore Although you are feeling somewhat empty and blue Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred and I’m so sore Constantly getting raped by woeful, harsh rue… Learning to cope with these emotions to the core…I let go and soar What did I do to deserve this cruel love flu? It’s true, I love you in my heavy-grieved heart It’s true, I am tearing apart from the very start Only His time tells and all When your pedestal of pleasure Will crumble down and fall Beyond a billion measures I’m sure Strange how change makes us feel deranged Remembering the time when I was lost and wasting away at last Rearrange your bad attitude into the attitude of gratitude free-ranged The past is in the past and my mind is racing extremely fast I don’t deserve to be deserted, though you are the one I adore I don’t deserve to be mistreated and neglected by you I won’t accept your heartless maltreatment anymore Although you are feeling somewhat empty and blue Yearning for some loving, but I get vile hatred and I’m so sore Constantly getting raped by woeful, harsh rue… Learning to cope with these emotions to the core…I let go and soar What did I do to deserve this cruel love flu? Sometimes, you did lift up the weight of the world from my shoulders But, instead of making it easy, you made me hike all these boulders… Gave my demons an undesirable reason to flee Gave my heavenly angels a sunlit hope to be free It gets lonesome in my awful dwelling place But, His haven is of heavenly, gleeful grace Only His time will tell If I’ll become enlightened Maybe it will ring a bell When I become strengthened Remembering the time when I was lost in the thought of you without a clue Forever found in His loving spirit and embraced me with happiness anew