Remain Sane
Do you recognize me anymore?
Do you realize that my heart is sore?
Let me memorize your heart’s melody
Let me see right through your…melancholy…
Do you ever wave goodbye to yesterday?
Can’t bear the thought of you leaving me today
You were gone with the flow in the wink of an eye
Let me sink this all in for a couple of years as they go by
Do you even care to know my deepest secrets?
Don’t you ever have guilty pleasures that end in regrets?
I’m sorry that I abandoned the time we had together
I deserted you and I didn’t mean to, you know that I’ll be better…
I’ll do better for you, my novel of genuine elegance, yet so filled with acrimony…
If it makes you change your mind about me
If it makes you accept the person inside me
If…only you’d understand where I’m coming from
If…only you’d be with me when I’m feeling numb
I don’t want to remain a bookmark to your book on the shelf
I don’t want to realize that I’m, yet again, losing myself
I don’t want this infatuation towards unpleasant agitation
I want to be sane like I used to be long ago…missing that childhood sensation
Do you recognize me anymore?
Do you realize that my heart is sore?
Let me memorize your heart’s melody
Let me see right through your…past and everything…
Caress the person that is dying to be alive in your next dream…
Confess to me your thoughts that make you wholeheartedly beam
Oh, I want unconditional affection in the most pure way possible
Oh, I need someone to just kiss away my depression and its rubble
Just don’t say anything that will affect me terribly in the slightest
I know it’s hard, but try to win life’s rather marvelous test
Don’t let go of what’s left of us and please acknowledge my presence
I might be so vague when I speak…or so awkward – or even both, who knows – I might not even make any sense
I have felt tense around you and I’d like to apologize honestly…
I detest not being able to completely talk my mind with you so easily
But…I won’t drop my guard in any way
Yet, something about you makes me wanna stay
You emit a mixture of good and bad energy and that is my honesty to you
So…don’t act so modest and tell me the truth if you have any clue
I’m like a spider, weaving a web of lovely woe and inner glow
It’s quite spectacular how I truly view you in its slight clarity
My emotions are like a grasshopper, hopping happily and hopelessly, you know…
It’s a miracle that I’m still alive physically, but dead in normality…
If it makes you better, I hand you my sorrow and my pain and my happiness and my joy
Or it doesn’t matter in your eyes of egotistical nonsense…they still glimmer like a brand new kid’s toy
I really don’t wanna get into too much detail about the encounters I’ve had with confusion of all kinds
If you don’t mind me explaining briefly – my unreliable, fickle mind are like the opening and closing of apartment blinds
And I can’t control it sometimes…
I have been blind one too many times…
Do you recognize me anymore?
Do you realize that my heart is sore?
Let me memorize your heart’s melody
Let me see right through your…
Sly motives and the desire within –
Well, you can give or take…or ignore…
You are a sweet loss and a win
You drive the lane of insanity
You and I can’t face reality
So, we lean on mere fantasy
The truth will see to it
We have fallen in this pit
Of self-pity and lack of wit
Just admit it – it’s not as bad as it appears to be
Fine…I haven’t always dismissed the doubts that lead to voracity
The change in your attitude and actions are naughty
Being poor in negativity and rich in positivity will make us feel more than alright
Who are you? The person I used to know with my might?
Who am I? The guy that can’t sleep at night?
Don’t you glance over the mistakes I did
I wish you well with the byes you bid
I’m like a jar without a lid
Yeah, so useless and all
I’m just a lonely hall
Missed your call…
Oh well…
Only God will tell…
What’s in store for you and me?
Just…just be still and we’ll be free
Waiting for sunshine on the other side of the somewhat riveting road…
Why do we need to separate so quickly this time? I wonder why as I unload my heart’s load
I turned the wrong turn and I can’t go back now…
I don’t know why you watch me like a show…
It’s as if my facial expressions say it all…
Wordless in this silence that stands tall…
I will mop up this mental mess I made in a moment
As soon as you make a change this instant…
And I too…and I too…
I don’t mean to ride the rivers of my rue…
Oddly enough, I’m still sick with the love flu…
And you too…and you too…
Take me to a place where I won’t step on the glass of the past
Wake me up from this…well…precious tragedy that won’t last
Find me, lingering in the shadows and reflections of the mirror before you
There, you will see my face and the tears along with it too…
There are things that I thought you have knew
Do you recognize me anymore?
Do you ever wave goodbye to yesterday?
Do you even care to know my deepest secrets?
I don’t want to remain in the margins of your sheet of music…
I thought I was the desire fire and you, the ever-dripping wick
I don’t mean to stumble upon your comforting sympathy
Evenly enough, I’m recovering from the virulent vice
That took me away from you – I couldn’t even think thrice
I need some advice,
For your mind is a bunch of mice…
Scurrying in my baffled brain of mine
I wish we can work things out just fine
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2017
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