Relief

Listening to my heart breathing Closing my eyes to the chaos around me Burning bridges in my wake Trying hard not to anticipate what may Restraining thoughts so strong Pulling, pushing, screaming to be free Something feels out of place The memory of your face is gone Staring at the phone Resisting the urge to call Standing with my back against the wall The seasons change And before you know it we're back where we left off Dusting old memories, rummaging through records spent Counting the times I played the fool Counting the times I took my heart off me sleeve And gave it to a people in disbelief Laughing for no particular reason Other than being alive in this present moment As bad as I thought things were I always had my friends to turn to Reaching for the door the telephone rings The sirens start to sing Listening to my heart breathing I breathe a sigh of relief.