Relapse

No one understand the things in my head I need a release I need a release and once again I'm between a pencil and pen I see the progression It gets worse every day I need to catch it before it's the end Flooded with emotions I can't control Destroy relationships I long to keep It's happening again I wish I could stop it At least this time I can get help early I happens the same time in the same way But only this time it's 8 years apart The panic The depression The anxiety yet blocking the fear Needing something to keep me level headed to work out everything that's haunting me There's a monster in my closet I have yet to destroy Lingering and leaving remnants behind not letting me go I'm fighting the two opposites and I'm losing control But this time I have a better support I just need to hold on The urge is there I need to resist breathe Corinne breathe A few more days and you'll be on recovery back again Just stop destroying everything in your path Allow the help stop hiding stop running even though no one understands No one can see the thoughts in my head and it's hard to get them out This is my only way that's why I choose a pen