Relapse

Inner walls collapse in rage Burning passion erupts today Forever lost with no escape I see a plan take its shape Painful relapse shows on me A path I never hoped could be Hiding wounds I have dealt Hiding smiles that it felt My younger self looks up to me And quickly turns so tearfully “You said you learned a different way To keep your pain at bay.” As he runs, I can’t give chase As the dark obscures my face I turn and hold my only friend And he leads me to my end Don’t fade to black Your memories before you are twisted But I lied to my God And for the sinner comes atonement And could I forget This black night ever existed? The reminders I made Cannot ever say goodbye.