Rejected

12/21/19 Not going to pretend it I've been feeling rejected And disrespected Nothing I said and did Was effective Time I take a sedative Or maybe 10 of them Was fine one minute then out the next second THC, pharmaceuticals and alcohol ingested For the pain, but it doesn't end it Until it all really sets in And I'm in another dimension Where there's no depression I guess it's Kind of like a respite But then reality sets in Continually tested And tempted Many nights I never rested I've been disoriented Don't know what direction I'm headed But I shall not be bested Or subjected To anything wretched I got to be intrepid Getting wiser and improving methods So there won't be no crash or wreckage According to legends And first hand accounts from veterans I don't think you get the message They talk of being destined And how it can be manifested Getting closer to the exit One day it all will have ended Whether or not, it was unexpected Might not make it to being old and decrepit And just may die alone, with no friendships My nephew dyslexic And this girl I know, is anorexic In a world so hectic It'll break you down, if you let it Turning into something unpleasant Whether your an adult or adolescent No longer very majestic It's becoming pathetic I'm tired of being authentic and poetic As well as what trended And is recommended Regardless, they're never going to give credit Later on or in the present