Regret

Its a tearful flaw flashback How i came to be a murderer me How my life turned like a leaf in strong winds And now my soul bleeds guilt My heart Itch's the love went sore It all started at our young lovemaking On one of our indoors romantic dates The silent hotel room that saw our love grow and glow The 4 walls that only knew our secrets All started in a special way The merrymaking hands touch To the face to face love looks Like a couple in their last night of love The kisses out of close glares The body caressing that exploded our feelings One act leading to another From the seats to the sheets But how could we stop this I wish i knew it would end the way it did I wish i knew it was sweet only for seconds I wish, i had learnt how i do now For the end came, the mission accomplished The flavour gotten, not as i thought He had nothing to lose, nothing to follow My virginity,my purity,my all What followed haunts me And the haunt hurts me I realised i was two in one But took me months to decide For it was a commitment, i was young to fall into So defenceless,so immature My only way out, the choice my intelligence To get rid of it,considered it a 'thing' not a life For i hated to feel its wrong,a feeling that could stop me Am here now,in pain n vain In tears and fears Feeling a murderer and a handler Sleepless nights feeling the cry of my daughter Feeling her pinch my heart From the toilet i dumped her Like a lunatic took the last look n flushed Sorry daughter, i was not me