Regret

A selfish desire nearly claimed a life tonight I should have stayed away I should have never returned To try to make you mine again You were happier when I was gone You blossomed further And my attempting to atone I simply made things worse You dream in a hospital Surrounded by machines Father is torn between relief and despair How much will everything cost to keep you safe? I should have called him first The Healthcare system has screwed us I'd have dropped some extra cash on taxes So saving your life wouldn't bankrupt you You're alive You almost weren't If I hadn't come back This wouldn't be a concern The guilt of the past was eating me alive This new guilt threatens to consume what was left It should have been me on that bridge I shouldn't be here to type this I have done nothing but bring desolation to you And trying to atone burned you even further You were right, there was nothing I could do And I regret that you gave me that chance now