Red Dot

Hate and distaste coming at you like shots to the head Guess I'll take another drink before this shot hits my head They say you only live once but I feel like I've used all my nine lives Feeling less than fine most of the time Trying to stay ahead really got me trailing behind I keep shooting my shot but all I do is build another brick house that is a poor investment The house has no walls so I use my own They are tall enough so I never let anyone in Not even for help But, I constantly scream help unconsciously At the same time I need my space so leave me be Crowds are so draining Just ahead I see my dreams but I can't move forward long enough to stop looking behind I think they are shooting a movie and I don't want to get left behind I know there is a halo waiting for me but sometimes I just want to steal it I just remembered I'm not ready to die Please don't shoot p.s. there is more to life than money, sex, and power...