Reality...

in the bitter cold of the night i shiver from head to toe the burn of the chill paralizes me to the bone i wrap myself in layers of guilt and self pity choking on hatred and vengence spitting up jealousy and revenge im stuck in between not knowing and knowing too much i marinate my thoughts in chunky pieces of regret swallow it down with disappointment my arterys are clogged with lies and betrayel im loosing feeling in all my limbs due to constant irritation and pain my environment is corrupted with non stop aggravation love has a mind of its own dreaming is where im safe friends are becoming loose ends i place sanctions on my feelings i am no longer free