Put Off

“We should do this again soon,” she says, but that’s not what she means and I should know this. It’s in the history of our relationship that she puts me off every time I want to get together. And yet, when I see her again, I think, this time will be different, this time she means it, because we have so much fun together. Two weeks pass before I ask her to lunch again. She says, “Maybe next week.” Next week comes and I ask again – no answer this time. Another week passes and she puts me off, saying, “We’ll see...” So why do I keep trying? Clearly she doesn’t want to see me. But why? What did I do? Is she faking a good time with me when we do get together? I can’t get it through my head – the P. I see in person and the P. who doesn’t return my phone calls or messages - how can they be so different? I have to believe she loves me not