Punished Me

O bloody me! bloody be my own state Such, such has to be my fate A creation emanating from disgust Still, to each one his own fate The Lord must have been angry When in anger, he chose to give me such a fate Always suffering for useless matters Even if knowing full well, that such is the laws of fate Full of ego, full of spite, full of disdain I can only still accept my fate Given to me by the Lord's hands On a late day when He did not grab my bait Innocent, I only gave to Him my utmost love Yet, He saw only my lusting state And would look at me with seething eyes Instead of melting and understanding my sorry state Today I do live my life, breaking each and every stone As such is given to me as my own fate!