Point of View

Point of view One day I'll leave this world behind Before I leave please forgive me for all the tears,heart and head aches I have given you As I'm writing this tears fall hitting my bed of sorrow Every word I write another dagger hits my heart, deeper and deeper they hit. The pain is to great to bare,I just took few pills to numb the pain,but here I continue to write In your eyes,Im a failure,a loser and worthless I'm sorry if I made it seem that way. It wasn't like that before You look at me and see a pity fool and treat me as a joke. In my eyes you were perfect even when I knew your imperfections Treating you the best that you deserved and noting less. I don't know what I did wrong but it kills me when I disappoint you knowing that I'm making it worst. One day I'll make it right and gain back want I lost from you Its getting to hard to write,harder to breath and I'm drowning in my agony. A couple more pills should help The pills reveal best memories we had together, and now every word i begin to write the daggers are sharper and they pierce the heart and hit my soul, uncontrollable laugh takes over And tears of joy begin to flow. My eyes are becoming heavy, I could hardly keep them open, I see you in the distance trying not to blink because I know you are an illusion. I feel my head bobbing, I see you getting closer to me,I smile, and I whisper hope to see you soon,I don't know where I going hopefully I'm looking down upon you and not looking up,just know I'm proud of you