Point of No Return April 29 2010

Sanity, is it a state of mind? or a reality so true. Confused, I don't know anymore, I wish I only knew. I'm lost, walking around in circles, spinning out of control. Loosing sight of what is real, reaching for anything to grab ahold. Shadowed by the pain, exhausted beyond belief. Searching far and wide, for any sign of relief. Lost in my own thoughts, starring off into space. Longing for so much more in life, yearning to find my place. Needing so much more in life, I'm hungry for something real. Limited in the options I choose, I'm willing to make a deal. My innocence was stole from me, with so much I have lost. Trying like he** to regain my life, tell me, what's the cost. So much more than I bargained for, am I in over my head. Fighting a loosing battle, I'll go down fighting till I'm dead. Pushing forward with all that I have, and giving all that I am. I ask myself day in and day out, why do I give a da** With every breath I take, it gets harder for me to breath. Suffocating one gasp at a time, is there peace I will receive. Pushing on and pushing through, with two steps forward and three steps back. Reaching the point of no return, someday I know I'll crack. Racing thoughts, scrambled words, I can't piece them all together. Wanting to have it all, something special to last forever. One day I will have fulfilled my dreams, I will have what I want and more. Nothing but happiness, smiles and joy, and laughter right down to the core.