Please Don'T Think Me Selfish

I am a little restless with the sound of a child screaming It's hard to keep breathing I try to shut my ears to it That tiny thing screaching Walk away real fast To stop the intensified feelings Of that baby wailing It's easier to stay away All alone in my home When it's her first birthday I'd rather stay at home I could never hold your daughter With those tiny little hands Watch her pursed rose bud lips These things I couldn't stand The smell of warm milky breath The suckling noise they make This tiny person all brand new These things I couldn't take I could never change a nappy Or pat her back to burp With her little eyes all glazed It just wouldn't work Please don't think me selfish As you can never see Or feel the hurt of the childless Your never feel as me My insides are empty From hope throughout the years That never amounted to nothing I spend some days in tears That inside I'm broken My heart it cracked in two For the wanting of a baby maybe even two When she grows up and gets married Has a baby of her own Then your be a granny But I'll still be alone