Pill

I’m anxious for my test tomorrow Even though I tell myself in ten years I wont remember my grade I still cant sleep I take the pill Wash it down and I find a sick comfort in knowing soon…soon I will find sleep The elusive love of my life whose tempting ways creep up at all the wrong times I don’t want you during class or on a date I want you at night in my bed. I want you to come more regularly than the fire alarms in Hamlin hall I start to feel the release of my body as the pill courses through my veins filling my capillary beds I feel warm I love it I know i could roll over, but i dont care, I just lay here and it’ll all go away The pain of the day wont even become a memory The fear of tomorrow wont be a reality for a couple more hours My friends say meditate or do yoga, but it doesn’t feel as good as this Knowing that I wont remember a thing or hear an alarm Knowing I wont care to wake up It is through this I find joy and peace… It is through this I find control