Phoenix

I feel so damn trapped in rage Like a rainbow lion in a cage I feel so much pain in my brain And it's driving me quite insane Numb my solace shame Get me feeling more tame I need some friends to rely on I want to stay with you till the dawn Laying down with nothing in mind I have a fragmented mind, So please be kind Or I will be left behind Being this loner isn't unusual to me I watch my days and nights go by All I want to be is with you so free I will give it a try - hope that will work as I heave many-a-sigh Maybe this time, I will fly like a vermilion Phoenix in the sky I will be boldly brazen like a vermilion Phoenix in the sky I will be confident like a vermilion Phoenix in the sky..oh how chilly-thrilly sublime And this time, I won't say later I will do it as soon as possible, love Just don't be a terrible traitor Be gentle and joyful...let's not make love unless we know He knows from high above If it's right or wrong... Either way, I'll still feel so lonely all along Believe in me, Lord of Accord...I have already forgiven people who did me wrong actually I'll let it be entirely and the rest will be forgotten Put the past in the fire of desire instead Oh how I loathe, feeling numb and my legs are much like lead I tend to forget to figure out my narrow or broad pathway And rest should be left unsaid My mentality is a fluffy feather, caught in the torrent of the wind (all along, I run my own route) But, I hear the echoes of melodic hope, not moping about, but hoping I sincerely belong (no doubt, you know what I'm talking about) I will be bold Not hot or cold I will be brave I will behave I am like a Phoenix in the airborne universe I am like a Phoenix, a gift or a curse...curse... Lord, rehearse peace inside me Keep me in my mind's busy store Shed me some sunshining positivity There are many lands of optimism to explore So, need I say more? Are you really the one I adore? Well, I'll fall in love one of these days Right after I arise from my ashes... Amber-colored ember - I caught a glimpse of it as it playfully strays It's ascending beyond my eyelashes Are you robust and passionate like radiant angels? Why am I under your spells? Not sure where my heart will dwell - perhaps in happy-go-lucky, wondrous wells I have over a billion things to say to you But, instead, I stay quiet like I always do I will rise from my ashes someday Are you my Crackle (a white-flamed crane and a white swan combined) in the Aphradere waterfalls where we once resided? Hopefully, we won't be led astray I'm stronger than I realize I'm not alone And I'm not a failure I'm a Phoenix of evanescent perseverance I want to be your cure I am spiritually not on my own I can see it in your elegant eyes I'm as zealous and meek as a tranquil, extraordinary Phoenix, seeking deliverance Physical elegance fades My knowledge increases substantially I push down the shades Calmness decreases my social anxiety I feel so damn trapped in solitude Like a brazen phoenix in his cage A long time ago, I lost my cranium train And it's driving me somewhat insane But, I'll live with it As long as I see fit Get off my independent lane I want to be Your gracious grain That shimmers like precious gold Much like being practically bold I am a Phoenix above your ashes I am yours as I mirror my eyelashes Thanks for calling me handsome I often think that I look hideous Thanks for believing me - you're awesome I often believe living is gracious I am the fire and you are the sky And vise versa - that, I can't lie As I waved my last goodbye, I noticed how time went by... The days are getting more efficiently fast-paced I don't want to be discouraged or disgraced I want to feel Your burning love So, I can be her Phoenix from above - the love I can't think of I forget, So get over it I regret, Feeling like I wish you were mine We would've done so fine Envy is blinding me eternally Will I ever be free from my captivity? What's beyond your ribcage of lies? Let me hello your goodbyes...through thick and thin, but where have you been? I can see sorrow and delight in your eyes Boy, how time flies...flames of freedom and faith still burn from within I don't want to give up on Your truth I am now a half full cup of tea I have been craving coffee - I am but a dangling tooth I feel worthless - I need caffeine to make me feel happy Numb my solace shame Get me feeling more tame I need some friends to rely on I want to stay with you till the dawn Laying down with nothing in mind I have a fragmented mind, So please be kind Or I will be left behind Or let me be that Phoenix of positivity The rest will be disposed of - our past negativity That comes into play, whether or not we get our way That happen all night and day I am a winner in the eyes of God's Word so incredible So what if you act like the Earth spins all around you, you imbecile I trod the road of evens and odds inwardly and outwardly I want and crave - I blame it on my hunters' instincts with no denial You're my victim - Did I just devour his limb? Well, what exactly can you do about it, for I'm your predator Times like these look dim; where's my buddy, Tim? Be like a vacuum and be rid of my vanity from deep inside me -- right, I gotta go; so umm see ya later, alligator Where is my family? Are they in good paws? If not, I will do frightening rawrs But, I can't fully throw out my past scars However, I love pain and would be swell to have a couple...not too much or too little...sorry for my tragic, panicky and manic wars

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