Permanent Solution

I've turned into all the things I've hated Given up against the things that deserved to be debated Lost trust and hope With your hand tightening around the rope I fall short of any relation Digging deep for any sensation This thing I see in the mirror Gives me no love just fear. Wondering if this thing will ever mutate into something I can learn to love and not hate. I've dug deep only to become more unaware of the things in life that remain so unfair. I listen for any call of arm Before giving into harm Too depressed to continue when life proves to be more than a temporary issue I can no longer stand strong in a place where I don't belong