Pearl

Racing chasing free replacing mental haze and thought erasing nothing real and nothing free – reality keeps haunting me – can I fix or can I flee – crazy crazy let me be – schizo psycho freak and wacko – one by one they’re falling backo – one face two face three face four – me and Kate and Jake and more – can I write free can I write fast, can I be sure my words will last No pen in hand, no end in sight, fight like a fish, scream like a blight, words and words and words unspoken silent aching shatter broken, spew the words all out on paper, cobble coherence from manic behavior – words and words and words unbroken streaming forth and slurred not spoken – desperation panic tension up and down and did I mention I found a pearl that glowed like coal and warmed me up and filled my soul, I kept it tight against my breast, I kept it at its own behest, and I will keep it here for good just let this love be understood – I’ll not pursue but always love, I’ll be apart, I’ll be above but closely in my breast you curl, my treasure angel little pearl – now leave me alone and let me write, let me scream and let me fight and I promise I’ll remain perfectly honestly really sane