Pain Has Been Here

I've never had a dream come true, I've lost track of time, Till the day I find peace, I’ll never be able to cope, Without you. Pain Has Been Here. I try to be happy for you, But I just cry. I am grieving, For the life, That was just lost. Pain Has Been Here. I am adrift, On an ocean of pain, My heart is the boat, But it’s leaking so badly. Why did you have to leave? Pain Has Been Here. I never told you, How I feel, Now you’re gone. I miss everything about you. Like there’s no sunrise, Just eternal night. Pain Has Been Here. Can’t believe that your gone, Now I have nothing left, Here I am, Alone in the meadow of sorrow. The pasture has been charred, By the fire of despair. Once a place of joy, Now ruined for life. Pain Has Been Here. I try to wake up, But I realize, It’s not a dream. Losing someone is terrible, Especially if it’s family. Nothing in the world, Can replace them, No one thing, Can ever fill the hole, In my heart. Pain Has Been Here. I don’t have to try, To be alone, I am alone. Looking in the mirror, I see a girl, Her eyes are dead, Lifeless, Completely devoid of life. Her skin is a dull gray, With no color at all. Pain Has Been Here. Every night I dream, You’re still here, When I wake, You’ll disappear. Pain Has Been Here. My heart is breaking, With the pain I feel, I fight to find my way in life, Everyday’s the same, I hurt, I cry, I break, But nothing will bring you back into my life. Pain Has Been Here. I’m a little girl again, Dreaming of what could be. My home is not a place to hide, Only a place of hurt. Pain Has Been Here. Seasons change, As I grow older, I look back, Into the misty memories, I see your face, And I wonder, Where did I go wrong? Pain Has Been Here. How could my family act, Like everything is okay. What did I do to deserve this, This is the dark, Before the dawn, The storm before the sunrise. Pain Has Been Here. Maybe crying is a way, To clean the slate, I try to hide my pain, Behind a mask, I try to hide the scars, Of the memories, Even though the scars don’t show, They are there for all to see, If they look close enough. Pain Has Been Here.