Pain Continues

I was leading a life full of hurt and pain Efforts to find happiness were in vain I needed to break free from this living hell And wished, to someone, my story I could tell You came into my world as a welcome relief I poured to you my life and all my grief You helped me move on and find clarity Between the mists of confusion, I found sanity I kept telling myself you didn't mean much to my being I kept my distance to protect my heart from breaking A heart that was broken, battered and brimming with pain That didn't have the resilience to be broken again But the days flew by and I found myself in love The feeling so heady, I was free as a dove And I told you I could reciprocate and give you a shoulder strong and sound To cry on, to be yourself, to help you find your ground But what you told me left me devastated and stunned I find myself falling into the abyss I had shunned I am now trying to run away from my life and you But wherever I look, I see you I am bleeding and shattered, dying to die My tears having evaporated, I can’t even cry I need a last drop of water before death comes through And holding that precious glass, standing before me is you