pain and healings

and here i am . still struggling with our memories . telling myself you dont need me anymore, but with a part of me fighting back against that. i wonder what things would be like after a year or a two. would i still be living without you? or would you come back to me? all these unanswered questions wander around , just like how a part of you wanders along with me wherever i go. i still wish for things to get better,