Pain

pain so sharp it takes my breath away! pain so fierce it feels like a thousand tiny needles all trying to pierce my still beating heart. pain so furious it knocks me to the ground! pain so ferocious i spend every day fearing the next round. when the pain strikes do not touch me, do not counsel me. when the pain strikes all you can do is watch. as i writhe in pain and wonder if my eighteen years have been in vain! when the pain strikes i think of past regrets, and all my unpayed debts. when the pain strikes i remember ten dollars owed, for a couple of books. when the pain strikes i see the faces of all my old friends! i see all the ones i've hurt. all the ones i've left! when i feel, that icy blade of pain, as it cuts open my chest, searching for my heart, i think of my family, and howi've let them down! as these thoughts flood my mind, while i writhe in pain, i can't help wondering, "is my life spent in vain?"