Pain

I see the blood You too know my thoughts You ask me why i did this I am ashamed at the sight I did what i needed My mind telling my soul What my body wouldn’t do Is this how it is The satisfaction i never get The reward of nothing My heart cries just once To see the hope To feel the love it never has To fill the gap its always had You whisper to me Tell me what i want to hear But it's not what i want It weakens me to think All this time you thought But never knew me I doubt myself You try to comfort me The grip of your soul holds me Tightens around mine I feel your strength The strength i never had It doesn’t help me Only makes this worse The guilt I’ve felt gets worse Burns in my chest like a fire It will never die down The pain is there And it plans to stay.