Out the Window

when the mind twists & contorts---- shortens the span of attention from nada to / what was that again? failure to launch failure to acknowledge there is a problem at all. it's not a fall! i'm just flying! just having fun! [my brain is lost & i can't find it, is what i mean--] what i mean what i truly mean i am a jelly bean sweating with saliva dripping with desire & furious with such passion -------- i'm numb. beyond. up up & away. we're gone. (the scary part was that i cared) not about me of course! such a shame that would be- but you, oh you! making me feel like such dirt like such a useless pile of sickness; just let me roll over & vomit my heart out.