Our Big Show

Im trying to get used to u not holding me anymore- Trying to get used to "NO KISS" as u walk out the door. Im trying to get used to taking my shower all alone- Im trying to not worry whether or not youre coming home. Im trying to get used to sleeping all by myself- Trying to get used to u putting my heart on a shelf. Im trying to get used to not having a boyfriend anymore- Trying to figure out what I am being punished for. Im sorry for disappointing u and letting u down- I thought we understood each other-thought we tread the same ground. I wasnt expecting this-I thought wed make it thru OK But I still havent came down from the shock. My heads still REELING, ever since the other day. I wish we somehow could of made it out of here- I wish you didnt feel so far away from me, when you are laying so freaking near. Im sorry that I couldnt make you happy anymore. I just wish I knew what this has all been for. I will never stop loving u-And forever I'll regret losing U this way. I wish you hadnt given up on me so soon. Wish u couldve listened to me & believed in me 2. We didnt get here all alone-and I knew I wasnt playing- But what we had wasnt strong enough- Becuz I lost U over BULL they were saying. The Only 1 ASSOUT...The only 1 paying. I've LOVED u for a very long time. I guess its time to say GOODBYE...Our Bond just isnt Strong enough To fight against the "NEW GUY". I wish I could change whatever I did to make u turn on me. Please turn in a better direction this time, make sure u look & see- Recognize that I just loved u for who you are- Not for all the things u could do for me. I know that I had NOTHING- and u've supported me all the way. I wasnt looking for a free ride, I thought we were going the same way. I guess that Im just not as important as before- I guess Im not so special to u anymore- Guess I dont play the GAME guite as well as 'them'- Because once again I get to play the loser-Of a game I'll never win. SO -GOOD LUCK TO U & ALL YOUR "IMPORTANT" NEW FRIENDS- Theyll hang out while they need UR help- I really didnt long for much more than u holding me at the end of the day. I hope u find what it is UR looking for anyway. Just remember to "TRUST NO 1", And trying is such a chore. And when u come up short-handed, Just Remember,Youre Worth So Much More. I will miss u so much,u'll probably never even know- That I wish this wasn't the end of us- "The End Of Our Big Show".....