Open Fantasy

Tired, exhausted working 2, 3 sometimes 4 jobs Is what mama had to do to keep a roof over our heads Raised by brothers and sisters never seen mothers face Was what i had to go throught on a daily base To think mama had to do it on her own Why because you were behind bars with a foggie mirrow and a bed Given everything you needed clouths, food and more Never had to work to survive behind those silver doors You though we lived in paradise but in truth we were on the road to the after life In my eyes the world was nothing but endless darkness And my escape was my emotions being spilled on a page that was ment for you To believe the girt i recieved from you was a knife plunged into my back At that moment in time my wolrd came tumbling down Shattered into a million peices that will never be found Can't believe i let my self be fouled into thinking your a fantastic dad But in thruth your only a clown A joke that's what you are a child stuck in a 50 year old man The mask you've worn for so many years has finally sunck so deep it made you blind You can't see your choices and mistakes are what make your binds You went so low to take mama's life Why because she wanted out of the marriage and you out of her life I remeber the day as though it were yesterday images replaying itself just by your name You banging on the door to let you in Saying if we dont today will be are end That was the first time i seen big sister so scared Crying and screaming with all her might for help That was torture to bear Looking into mama's eyes there was nothing but fear Not for herself but her children who were there Crying there eyes out and screaming for there mothers help To think the man i once called father the one who gave me life Who told me multiple times he'd always be there is my greatest fear Everyday before i walk out the door of my house I close my eyes lift my hands and pray to the lord Hoping he'd bring back the gently kind man that i held so dear But iknow in my Mind and in my Heart it's only and Open Fantasy