Only Me

THE PAIN, THE CRIES, THE TRUTH, THE LIES, PERPETUAL BLIS GONE AMISS: HOPE LOST THEN RECOVERED. SMALL DREAMS; NOW SMOTHERED, MEANING- LESS FAITH BECOMES WRECKLESS HATE. PAID FOR SINS NOT MY OWN, DEBT GROWS DEEPER THAN THE UNKNOWN. SEAS OF EUPHORIC VISIONS FLASH BEFORE MY EYES. THE JURY'S VERDICT CAME WITHOUT DELIBERATION; NO TRIAL. "GUILTY", UNANAMOUS DECISION. DOWNWARD SPIRAL BEGINS AGAIN, REACHING FOR THE PRESCRIBED STRENGTH; JUST TO MAKE IT ONE MORE DAY. RUSHED INTO REALITY, MY SPIRIT SOARS WITH DUALITY. ONE SIDE GOOD, CLEAN, WHOLESOME FUN. ANOTHER SIDE CONSUMED BBY THE HATRED CAUSED AND DONE. WHICH SIDE SHALL IT BE, WHAT SHALL I SEE, WHERE WILL I HIDE, WHO CAN SEE PAST THE LIES, WHEN CAN I BREATHE. HOW WILL I RECOVER, WHO WILL CATCH ME WHEN I FALL OFF THIS ROLLERCOASTER. ALL THE TIME, NEVER NEW; SAME-OLD, SAME-OLD, HIDDEN IN TRUTHS. BELIEVE IN NOTHING, HOPE FOR EVERYTHING, TRUST TO BE FREE, WISH THERE WAS SOMEONE WHO COULD SAVE ME...FROM ME. TO LOVE ONLY ME, TO HOLD ONLY ME. TO SEE MY FAMILY AND SEE ONLY ME. SELFISHNESS HAS BECOME MY ANONYMITY. SO FOR NOW I'LL HOLD DEAR, WHAT ONCE WAS SO CLEAR. MY FUNERAL SONG IS NOW BECOME MY LIFE'S MISSION...TO FREE THIS PAIN...I HOLD SO DEEP INSIDE...ME...GOODBYE