One of Those Days

Today was one of those days, The days where I can't breathe. Where I have to close my eyes for a moment, A moment because it's hard to believe. Today I could feel the hole inside, The hole I've tried so hard to fill. But there is space inside of me, A space that longs for you still. Most days I can shut out the pain, Move along like you've never left. But today was one of those days, Where I had to stop to catch my breath. As hard as I try to fight it, Fight the pain you left behind. Sometimes I must let it consume me, Or I fear I'll loose my mind. You left behind a ragged mess, A a mess that's tattered and torn. I'll never give my heart away, Off true love I've sworn. As much as I wish to replace you, Find someone else to dull the ache. I can't give my heart away again, That's a risk I'm not willing to take. Your poison in my veins almost killed me, To this day some still remains. Often with beats of my heart, I feel it coursing through my veins. While yes I'm getting stronger, Breathing easier everyday. Our life plays over as memories, A movie forever stuck on play. And today was just one of those days, A day where I let myself feel the pain. The pain that's a constant reminder, That i will never be the same.