One Day

These long and lonely days Are very dangerous roads Too much time for me to ponder Can my heart carry this load Plenty of time has gone by now Enough for healing to start I can tell that to my head But I don't hear it in my heart This time is mostly spent On living in the past Reliving happy moments Over which now shadows cast As I think of better days Sweet memories as my source I realize with amazement That I long to hear your voice To hear you tell me softly That everything will be fine That your love for me was always true And we can turn back the hands of time But I know down deep within That's only an empty dream For your love for me was never As real as you made it seem Although the love you showed me Restored my hope for things to be You soon shattered my newfound faith And left me drowning, lost at sea The belief in love you made me feel That someone could be true Was only just a mask you wore This picture of happiness you drew Only adding to my pain Are the tears you never shed You do not mourn for what you've lost Your heart for me unbled Because in reality Your intentions were concealed You never gave yourself to me Real love you did not feel You did not want forever You didn't want me to stay You only wanted triumph For this stupid game you play So triumph I will give you But not because I'm weak But because when all is said and done You won't find the joy you seek You will one day look for love so true, Asking God to hear your prayer But all that He will answer is My son, there's nothing there You will cry and you will mourn You'll dance the lonely dances But soon you'll come to realize You threw away all your chances I may have been that chance for you But that we cannot tell Though one day you will wonder "What if" questions will unveil Was I the one that got away Did you throw away the best Did your selfish ways cost you The One When your heart was put to the test Right now it's true I'm struggling To change my point of view To find that place in time Where I don't cry for you Where I no longer live In the place where memories exist Where my love is something valued Not just another name on a list One day that time will come I'll find the one that's true Peace and joy will take your place And I won't think of you The grief I feel will be no more I'll be happy and be free And though you may not know it now But that's when you'll cry for me