Once Upon a Mind

Once upon a mind. A lonely soul sleeps inside my heart. It has given up on trying to be my star. The light has dimmed; the finish has begun to become duller. I have never been anything other than sullen And now my soul is no watercolour. Scatter no seeds, for nothing will grow, Inside this black hole that I call my soul. I cannot take hold of a direction in which to go, Because I am unable to see ahead, when I am without hope. No more, no less; The same phrase repeats again. What more can I say when all is gone so far away? Out of reach, but never out of mind; Still it lingers at the fore front of a head without design. Clutter, splutter, mix me with resent; No chance to repent, No choice to have left. Just left behind, by a love life that has moved on to be happy And found itself a new home, as I lie inside my cemetery. Gone from this diseased soul, formed from insecurities. It has escaped and taken my heart with it and from me. Now I am soulless and never free to dream without regret. Continuously delirious, So easy to detest. Once upon a mind, love has exploded And now there is no trace left. No Jessica Rabbit to find, No saving emo. No happy me; Just where ego, I go. My body moves of its own accord. I am too bored to give it orders, When I am busy crawling up the wall, In search of just one thing that even matters! Life is no adventure and I am the mad hatter. Lost in a wonderland of my own mind’s creations. I fall down (a rabbit hole) and break an ankle. I am no longer in contention, To be a contender for the title of most loved. Just stuck in the mud with no tears left to wash it all off; Gone is my chosen destiny…I have given up. (C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.