Once Upon a Hundredth Time Pt 2

We are the same, but oh so different- both intrigued by life's strange flow. Inquisitive as to how- my Hellish life's led to this "home". He'd shown light upon my scars- in ways I'd never seen before. He did not dismiss their depths- but led me to so much more. So I traversed uncharted places- In hopes I'd find my purpose. And though the journey scares me- he assures me that it's worth it. So I dipped my toes in first- and then submerged into the depths. I took his outstretched hand- and prayed my safety would be kept. Through most of my life- I'm the one whes giving care. To everyone around me- Always had love to spare. So now that he is here- and has stooped down to hold me. The warmth it does confuse me- I fear such love might control me. I seep into your skin- and try inhabiting this space. There's nothing in this world- quite like that smile on your face. Without much thought at all- I'll infect you through and through. I'm hoping that you'll catch me- as I fall back into you. Just as I start to trust the fall- you step, just out of view. And suddenly my safety net- escapes along with you. Why the sudden change the heart? - with only hollow words to respond. But the way your lips move- they paint the most enticing sounds. I'm desperate now to feel the warmth- that you wrapped around my heart. I search for any way- (to) revive what we had from the start. There's no way it just dissapeared- with such fine in our eyes. Or was I simply Foolish- to think youd want me all your life? What is it I keep missing? when people offer me their love? Honestly, it's probably- that I can't be loved at all. Or maybe I am just naive- and I just can't help myself. When pretty smiles, speak pretty lies- it conveys an unfeigned help. To think that one could care so much- and believe I'm worth protecting. That someone sees these scars- and actually wants for me true healing. See, all of these are ways- of which I truly thought he felt. And that leaves me conflicted- in lieu of all pain he's dealt. Again, nobody's perfect- were only human after all. But how could someone love so much- then motionlessly, watch me fall?