On My Mind

What is it about love that makes us laugh unpredictably, cry uncontrollably and dance unendingly . The happy times, they seem so far away.. but I know they were just yesterday.. Yesterday when I held your hand in mine And felt your warm breath in my ear... Where, tell me please...where and when did we leave there? Too hard to let go Too scared to make a change But something had to give.. We were going to make or break It was up to us to choose. But what happens when its the latter you choose? Where do the emotions go where does love and memories hide What does your mind and your heart do, What do they do to get over you? Getting back to loving me But the thoughts of you, they linger sometimes The words I never said The things I hoped would grow They all stir inside Turning everything in my soul Have we lost it forever A faint past, only left for reminiscing. Could it be that it is all lost forevermore Never to be remembered and just left to be no more Sometimes I think if it were meant to be You would somehow, come along and find me Tell me how much you love me, Just like the hundred times before But this time say it slowly As I try to love you rightly There is so much I couldn't see So much I took for granted So much selfishness, too much wanting to be Not enough accepting as is and just allowing it all to be I wanted you to be someone you weren't and in some ways you expected the same from me We were loving but changing Caring, tearing and still surviving Living with no air, barely enough space to be fair So lets be honest I did things and you did things Can we come clean? Just make it so perhaps the slate can have a gleam Say the things that you wanted to And I'll say mine Don't hold it back There's no reason to lie Honesty, Trust and Respect You had it for all me Or so you made it seem but I lost it for you... And couldn't bear to tell you so Can it be recaptured, only time will tell.. My heart feels so twisted sometimes, is it because of your smile? P.S. - On my mind