Oh Yes

Oh God Most High, oh yes… I’ve done it again… I admit…now, I’m in distress Oh Lord, why did I sin that same sin over and over again? Why did You allow this to happen to me? Where have you been? You know what I’m talking about… I just want a way out – maybe an escape route… Your mercy is shining no doubt… I have the urge to shout – but not in anger...I don’t want to pout… I want to shout for joy instead of acting like a spoiled boy My world is shaken in shame without You It’s the things I put myself through…it’s the things I do… So, come save me from myself… I’m my worst enemy and best friend combined I know I’ve been left behind…honestly, blind… My human nature is my mischievous enemy… My life is like a rocky mountain My eyes are crying a fountain I am a depressed bear in his cave But, I must be happy and be brave Be my shield once again – move me in ways I can’t quite put a finger on and then, Be my sword, for I am fighting against my evil ways like a battle of a million men… Still wondering… Why am I being so rebellious these days? Why am I being so foolish in my ways? I want Your freedom to set me free Even if it’s for a temporary time Even if You promise it for an eternity I’d be happy with a sign or answer to my plea… Please? These sins are getting me sick like a disease…like a fish without its fins… Please…I’m a captive, caught in the chords of my own embarrassing sins… If only someone would lend me an ear… Or even someone to hold on to so dear… God is telling me not to fear, for He will appear To help me out along the way as I trek this mountain of life He is also giving me signs to let peace in and kick out strife Frankly, all these sins that carry guilt trips cut like an unforgiving knife Until God’s mercy sets me free From my plague of a ugly mindset and remorseful regret I won’t doubt You with anxiety I will try to sin less, Lord…I probably will slip and fall I bet… But I won’t promise anything that will, later on, bring You down In the inside, I probably appear to be looking like a torn-up town So, I will have to say Thank You for everything…I’m grateful for Your love… I’m thankful for Your mercy, Your gracious glory, Your optimistic joy from above… There’s no price tag to Your mercy You are like the numerous stars in the midnight sky Forgive me, Lord, please forgive me… I keep sinning and sinning and I don’t know…exactly why But, it’s not too late… God is love, not hate… Sorry for doubting You so… My Father, I’m fine though… I just need time to think things through… Perhaps, one day, I will understand You All the way…not only partially if you get my drift… Sinning is so easy to do – it’s automatic and swift… Oh yes, you make the Narrow Path available to us I know that I’ve been struggling to get out of life’s bus I want to embrace Your Word every second of everyday I am in need of Your grace to set me free from dismay I understand that I’ve failed You an infinity times… I’ll admit it – I committed some personal crimes… But, You know that I am only human and I fall short… Well, that’s an understatement…I need Your comfort… Let go of me, sorrow… I need Your tomorrow… Forgive my yesterdays… And my bittersweet ways… I’m really thoughtless and heartless sometimes…I am going through some tough times More than often, I wish I could have Your wisdom and be the poet with faithful rhymes You have helped me a lot in all aspects of my wild and reckless life and I give You all the credit I’m still sorry for everything that I’ve done that disappointed you, but You tell me not to sweat it, So I won’t…anymore… There’s more hope in store… Believe me, I’m trying on a clean slate… Your love is greater than Satan’s hate… He wants me to feel sad and discouraged… You want me to feel glad and encouraged! I am dust… I pray that I won’t give up and give in to lust… I do trust… I will change for the better – now, that’s a must! Now, that’s a most-anticipated must!