Oh My Mom How I Miss You

I stopped to see you at your grave today. I thought and wondered just what to say... As I dug around and cleaned your stone. I suddenly felt so very alone. I played the songs on my radio, Which played a part in your life. Upon your stone it only says, Beloved Wife. Six children you had, no, the seventh went home. I just bet you're now holding, you're not alone. I tried to remember the last memory I had. But I kept returning to all that was sad. I still remember that day you died... I held your hand as my father cried. So many things I used to do, Like steal a flower and give it to you. Where did you get that, Oh, never mind. The thoughts that you had were so very kind. You were there when I was good. You were there when I was bad. You corrected me the times when you should. And now my heart is oh so sad. I talked to you about the cancer in dad; His lung removed and gall bladder he had. The more I thought about all these things, The more my heart broke. A song came on that dad sang to you, And as it did I sang it too. I looked around for a flower to steal And as I did my head began to reel. My heart it sank to fathoms below, I fell to my knees and wept so low. The memories are all that I have, but for my tears, My only salve. I bent and kissed the plaque, on the cross. I wondered if I'd find my way to you or be lost. I thought of the first memory of mine, In a hospital, I was two and doing fine. The scarlet fever was gone and you and dad came for me. I was so happy, as happy as can be. I dusted the dirt away and took a hand full home. I thought of when I might die and if I'd be alone. My heart it ached and my eyes they wept, I saw as I was watching with in my mind, You and dad coming for me, My feet, still they kept. Your arms open wide and your faces so kind... And again I wept... Four years it will be that you've been away. There is nothing more I can do or say. I love you and miss you, my Beloved Mother. Though dad has remarried, there will be no other... I long to see you once again, and hold you in my arms. In a place where there are no tears, I know I will cry... For I will cry tears of joy to see you again. Again my heart breaks and again I weep. Oh, mom I miss you, but the memories I'll keep... (Mom has been gone since 1996. Dad died almost ten years later. I still hurt inside.)