Oh Joy

the fates surround me like i'm part of someone else's destiny sporadic, spacial, evenly scarred what am i so afraid of? a tear in the heart and a slit to the veins evenly remorseless evenly scathed condescending overhead has gone underway if you could have only seen the looks on my face(s) so i hang, utilitarian nothing new to say tourette's-like crying thoughts once forebade comatose overgrowth moss spreading across my eyelids if you give it just enough time i could become permanently blind oh joy but the f-cks those spineless, dirty ape-sh-t f-cks they thought they could just sit around and make themselves at home in my apartment sipping my soda and endulging in whatever's in the cupboard i walked in to meet a gun shook triggers and sat down i held my composure my typically nervous composure and gladly obliged when they asked for my wallet no skin off my neck or whatever that phrase was no skin off my... gunfire i looked over to a bullethole in the couch then some kind of blow to the head when i woke up they were gone oh joy i just wish i was sleeping